Back on the Front

Well I am back. After my last post I lost my feeling for writing. I was so busy with a lot of things and I felt really good.
I still feel very good, but I had 2 dark moments in the last 5 weeks. The first dark moment appears when I was out with my wife for our 12,5 year anniversary for our marriage.
I was in our hotelroom and I felt so down and empty, I even dreamed about it. The next day I was a little quiet and my wife noticed that of course. When we arrived at home my parents invited us to go out for dinner and than I also felt a little down.
In contrast of these dark moments the next evening we went out for dinner again with our kids and that felt really good. It was a surprise for them and for my wife. I had arranged it because of our anniversary. It was a great succes....
Last sunday was my second dark moment. just a second and I was so angry...
I felt really down and was not able to communicate with my wife. We both went to bed angry and quiet.
We talked with my therapist and we think that a lot of my problems appears when I have to much energy. I must get rid of these surplus of power. So now I am looking for a way to do something fysical.