Getting stronger

Today I felt more stronger than yesterday. It seems there was no black hole 2 days ago. It is very strange that you are positive and believes in the good things after only days of suffering and feeling completly lost and down.
I can not imagine to go back in the black hole, but is there outside waiting for me.
It is like a great and mean predator standing outside your save house. Everytime when you look outside you maybe see but mostly you feel the monster. You don't want to go outdoors, because it is save and warm inside.
In life you must go out, so you have to fight the monster.
Now you feel confident about this fight, but for how long?