Too much

Today I felt too much. I want to replace a collegua but someone else passed me. I tried to stay professionel, but I felt bad about it. I had time enough to do the extra job and I know all about it. It is more or less my nature to do this job.
Today I found out that another want to do this job, so I'm passed.
And know I feel the monster knocking on my door. I will fight it and take care of it. I feel very strong so I can beat it today.
Allso I'm finding strenght in listening to some fine music. That always helps me to overcome the animal outside my safe home.