Keep working

It was a normal working day, but I felt strong and in balance. I did my job and the job of someone else and that makes me very happy. It is good when you can replace him and he is very pleased with the way you do the job for him.
I allso looked at some pictures of my marriage and for the first time I could even look to them.
For a long time I couldn't look to myself on a picture or in a movie. I was afraid to see myself happy and to feel myself sitting in my Blach Hole.
I even left the room when my wife wanted to look at our weddingmovie.
So I made for myself this giant step and look to my face while it shines.