Going out

Today we went out for a nice day in a amusement park with a large swimming pool.My kids loved it and it was for me a very good day. I stayed relax, had no attack of anger and everything went really well.
I hate this kind of events because most of the time there are to many people and I don't like big crowds.
After we went home my wife asked me about my feelings over the day and I said good. She told me that she had no idea about that. She normmally knows when I have a bad day, but she could not see that I had a good day.
Such day proves to me that their is still progress in my illness and that makes it even a much better day.

No depression

It is quiet inside my mind. It seems there is no depression. Everything goes nice and easy.
I know it is there underneath the surface, but it isn't coming out now.
It gives me a good feeling that there is progress in my sickness and that I can handle my mental balance better, but I'm afraid that a little thing can happen and it will burst out to the surface.
I hope not, but I am realistic, the struggle is not over yet. There is stil a long way to go.

Time

The last 2 days there was no time to be afraid of my mental status. I was so busy and my days were loaded with work and meetings.
I felt some anger when I had to do something what I didn't expected, but I was able to keep myself calm and easy and I think that nobody notice it.
I felt even something of happiness inside myself, because of the way things went these days.
Now starts the real challenge in the weekend with the family, because they know me the best and they have missed me the last 3 days. They will ask a lot of attention and interest from me, while I want to stay quiet and calm because I'm tired and want to relax.