I believe I have to make a next step in my recovery. I must learn myself to enjoy the little things in life. I cannot live on with my unhappines. It disturbs the enviroment around me and people will turn away from me in the end.
I must find a way to get grip on my dark feelings, but it takes a lot of time
The last days I think I am useful. People are happy with me and that gives me a good feeling. I feel relaxed and the dark clouds are far a way.
I feel full of energy and don't need much sleep. I am already looking forward to the holiday saison. I really want to have a good time with my family and hope we have better holiday than least year.
Last time I felt so unhappy and we had a great time together, we had good weather, a nice place to be, etc, but I felt like I was not there any more. I really was unhappy.
But I have treatment now and I understand my dark feelings better, so I will enjoy the time with my family and be there for them, so they have a great time also.
