Final

It is over. The event is ready and done. It was a busy day with a lot of things to do and handle, but it al went well.
I had some stress the day before, but it went well. People were helpful and were pleased with me and my help. The only thing that we were missing was visitors but that was all.
Now I have a little pain in my muscles and I feel a little tired. Yesterday I went to bed very early and had a good nnight sleep.
I feel reliefed and satisfied that I was part of it and really could handle that pressure. Even when a lot of people were calling for me I felt calm and relaxed. I kept saying to myself, "stay calm, one thing at the time, what is more important, etc". Now it is finished and we go one to the next event.

Getting stronger

Today I felt more stronger than yesterday. It seems there was no black hole 2 days ago. It is very strange that you are positive and believes in the good things after only days of suffering and feeling completly lost and down.
I can not imagine to go back in the black hole, but is there outside waiting for me.
It is like a great and mean predator standing outside your save house. Everytime when you look outside you maybe see but mostly you feel the monster. You don't want to go outdoors, because it is save and warm inside.
In life you must go out, so you have to fight the monster.
Now you feel confident about this fight, but for how long?