Dead

Today my father in law died. I was standing with my wife and her mother, brother and sister and we saw life getting out of his body. I felt really emotional. I even felt tears in my eyes. It is a very special emotion to be in a room with the dead very nearby.
It is strange to see the man who was alive become just a shell with tissue.
Er was today no room for my problems, I was there for my wife and family. This morning and last night I had to prepare my kids for this event. The oldest was very emotional and the youngest stayed calm.
I am still calm and really relaxed, but we will see what happens in the coming days and at the funeral.

Power

Today I needed my power.My father in law is in the hospital and they more or less fear for his life. Now I have no time to think about my illnes, but I need to be strong for my wife.
But now I am stepping a side and that is no good. I must stay focused on my one problems, I cann't hide them.
I will support my wife in this difficult moments, but I allso have to pay attention on my own situation.
Today I had a good conversation with my boss. He will support me when I needed more or other therapy. The company is insured for hese kind of problems, so if I want more help, they wil find it for me.
I know this a unique offer and when I need it, I will use it.

My kids today told me that they feel unhappy when I got to work last monday. They miss me, because they thought that I was at home this week.

I must be proud about such a statement.