Event

Coming saturday I am responsible for a event at our club. I feel relaxed about it, but I feel the nerves coming.
All the questions about everything running in my mind. But together with some other people I think it will be a succes.
Normally I will be there every minute and call every one to be sure it will be oké.
The illness keeps me calm. I realize that it has no effect to pump up my bloodpressure and puts mu heart beat above 150.
I keep calm with the thougt that I had done everything what I could do to make it a succes. And I believe it will be.

I keep learning every day

Forget

The last days I was so busy, I forgot al my problems. It seems that a full agenda has a positive effect on my mental balance.
Normaly taking a bit of distance from he things of live wil help, but I need to stay busy and with a lot of pressure to feel myself better. I don't know what is the good way?
I am maybe a little bit of workaholic, but I need to put my energy some where. When I have to much energy I feel restless and down. When I can spend my power I feel light and happy.
For example yesterday I went up at 6.15 am and went to bed 0.30 am. I had a great day and I felt really satisfied. I had a great mental balance and my dark feelings from the weekend were gone.
Maybe this is another road for revory.