Back to work

Today I went back to work. One week to early, but I want to found out that going back to the daily structure, improved my mental balance.
I hate to say it, but it does. I feel really sorry for my family but today was one of the best days in the last 2 weeks. I felt no anger, no dark emotions, just a positive and good feeling. I even had a meeting at our club this evening and I really felt good.
Last night I told my wife that I felt sad about going to work and I really was. I still feel sad because my wife and kids are not able to give me that good feeling.
I have to work on that. I have to turn around this situation and find a good feeling with my family and work... is just work.