Relieved
I am back from my holiday and it was good. I was not angry or felt down. The black hole didn't appear.
Everyday I did my exercise and loose my energy, I really took care of my food, so everyone was happy.
We had a great holiday as a family, so now we know how to do it.
For me it a great relief that I really can enjoy my holiday again. But it is clear to me that I have to move during the days and not just sit down and read my book. Than I can become grumpy and emotional. I need to stay in balance. Now I know how to manage my energy.